My head heavy and bogged down with stuff,
thoughts and feelings all racing through, zip zapping across.
Somehow, I just don't feel at rest.
Just too many issues to deal with, which I'm trying to put aside and not even bother.
I wish.
The restlessness just builds up day by day,
and now, I'm honestly not sure how long more I can keep up with this before I breakdown or explode.
I ask myself why I bother and care so much about stuff,
when I know I'm not really at the losing end of the line.
I feel Lost.
At this point in time, I just feel like telling someone off...
There's no point penting it all up deep down inside,
coz I'm just hurting myself even more...
I think the worst is when hurt is involved,
and the person is not even aware of it.
Not literally physical hurt...but more emotionally.
Sometimes I ask myself is it just me?
I'm not perfect,
but it does take two hands to clap afterall.
I know I'm wearing a mask...
hiding the feelings and emotions from the people around me.
I question myself...
Am I living a lie?
I try to occupy my time as a cover up,
hoping it will help to ease the troubles within...
this can't go on....I know it for a fact myself.
Time...
But how much longer can this go on?
I just feel hopeless, fearful and emotionally tired
I'm drowning within myself...